A lot of my guilt around my job search is failing the trad "male provider" role and seemingly inherent status anxiety around being a man. I would feel fine wor

A lot of my guilt around my job search is failing the trad "male provider" role and seemingly inherent status anxiety around being a man. I would feel fine working at 711 and coming home to grind on code. I'm not an atom though. My wife can't pay the rent alone forever and my dog needs to seemingly eat every day. I've gone through this cycle previously before pursuing coding professionally, and this time I at least have the consolation of knowing my next salary will more than make up for my many strings of resigned couch tending. I'm also now thoroughly convinced that our behavior can be chemically diverted. I don't feel like a piece of shit when I feel sad or unmotivated anymore, just more like a puzzle that's temporarily missing some neuromolecular pieces.