You are not getting thrown under the bus, so all is good! The project is done, you've learnt something, kept your job. It's a good time to exhale... and rechar

You are not getting thrown under the bus, so all is good! The project is done, you've learnt something, kept your job. It's a good time to exhale... and recharge, shake off some doubts and guilt. Everyone feels that bad when wacked like a mole by big boss and when orphaned by the direct manager. So, I'd rather see it as it's not about you, it's about them... Your ego got a bruise, but it'll heal. The next steps depend on your company/team culture. If there's some formal retro process, then there will be a chance to look over what worked and what did not. Patch over it collectively. If your team has no such practice and just zips into the next project/stage, then you may want to find ways to gain such feedback by yourself. In general, if you perceive a blame from your boss, then the team is somewhat dysfunctional, esp. knowing that you are a "green mind". So this may by itself present a finding for you. Meanwhile, just chart three columns and fill what and why you think worked well , what did not work, and how to possibly make it work (if by yourself or by the team). Keep this analysis to yourself, primarily just to offload it from your mind. Also this may prep it for possible talk-it-over chance with a boss (there usually will be a review at some point). Though I won't keep hopes high, I would just learn things as I could. That early in your career, just find a sane way to gain the experience, mostly good one. Try not to color everything personally, it's just a project, there will be others. Learn what makes you feel good at your job, what sort of interaction, dynamic. This will help you guide your future decisions and career choices. Good luck! P.S. there are some political ways of handling this, basically "managing your manager" but I won't try to go there, as it's exhausting and only spreads the dysfunction. Congrats on surviving the project. Get all this shit off your mind and make it ready for the next run, now you're battle-tested!