I drank to drunkenness most nights throughout my 20s and early 30s, and then quit entirely. I wasn't really drinking to have fun. Mostly, I was drinking because

I drank to drunkenness most nights throughout my 20s and early 30s, and then quit entirely. I wasn't really drinking to have fun. Mostly, I was drinking because it sort of made the tedium of hanging around with "friends" in bars a little more tolerable. But also, I was pretty angry and resentful, and harming myself by getting falling-down drunk relieved those feelings a little. If you have to drink to have fun, then what you're doing can't be that fun to begin with.