I'm sorry this has been so hard for you, it sounds like you're burnt out. I also want to affirm that yes, part of the reason for these tests is definitely to c

I'm sorry this has been so hard for you, it sounds like you're burnt out. I also want to affirm that yes, part of the reason for these tests is definitely to check that you are able and willing to jump through the hoops that a large organization sets up as it scales; it's no fun at all. As someone who's done the grind myself, I would push back slightly and say that the skills I use to solve leetcode problems are ones I've used at my BigTech job, and that that can be fun and useful. Gaining that type of insight though, generally doesn't come from just grinding leetcodes over and over again, but also returning to study algorithms textbooks like CLRS. The insights you gain from understanding these techniques deeply can lead to some truly interesting solutions to real problems. Best of luck.