You have a flaw, that flaw is envy. It is a very human flaw. It's your decision if you embrace it as part of who you are and just be an envious person, or recog

You have a flaw, that flaw is envy. It is a very human flaw. It's your decision if you embrace it as part of who you are and just be an envious person, or recognize that it isn't a virtue and attempt to improve yourself. It is not easy. How to be gracious? Recognize a few things. First, your friends don't need you, they keep you in their lives because they like you, they care about you. They choose to spend time with you, because they have the resources to not but they do anyway. You should feel loved. The other side of that is, you can choose to be a positive impact in their lives, let them have their positive impact on yours, or you can choose to let your envy sour things. And it will, eventually. In choosing to have these people in your life, you're choosing not to put the weight of your envy on them at the very least, ideally, you're learning to let go of that envy. You sound like you don't want to feel this way, which is a good sign. And also, of course it is implied, you want these things for yourself as well. So advice on how you get there would best be gotten from them. There's a selfish motive here for you, and that's OK, let them teach you how to do what they did, I'm sure they'd be more than happy to do so. Turn that selfish emotion from envy to curiosity. As far as my finances go, I don't discuss them, especially online to random strangers, but I will say I'm better off than most of my peers, but I live off probably a lot less money than you do.