Ask if they would be willing to finance a project of yours. > As a good friend I should feel happy for them, and I pretend to, but inside it makes me feel terr

Ask if they would be willing to finance a project of yours. > As a good friend I should feel happy for them, and I pretend to, but inside it makes me feel terrible. Sounds like a much more interesting problem. Try harder to become who you want to be. Figure out why you feel terrible. If it is simply because you are a greedy capitalist who looks up to wealth and down on poor people you might feel good if you make an effort to help someone.