it's not a matter of self-fulfillment. it's knowing myself, my age, my age at the time that I discovered that I was not normal, and knowing the rate at which t

it's not a matter of self-fulfillment. it's knowing myself, my age, my age at the time that I discovered that I was not normal, and knowing the rate at which these things can be fixed. I simply won't live long enough to fix this completely. humans don't live that long. I've accepted it, as much as it can be accepted. I will just not be able to have a relationship with a female in which I can be open, because I scare away the good ones, and attract the ones that steal my identity and leave when they've used it up. and I simply can't get emotional support from men, it's always responses that boil down to "I don't want to talk about this." so I'm part of a species that needs emotional support, without emotional support, and there is none on the horizon. I'm trapped in this world, but not of it. That's just my role here, I guess. Forever an outsider. anyone that says I'm not permanently broken just isn't aware of the situation. and to be honest, I would say what you've said, if the roles were reversed.