I see lots of long-term advice, so I'm going to skip that. I also believe that any answers have to come from within. You have to deal with the consequences of a

I see lots of long-term advice, so I'm going to skip that. I also believe that any answers have to come from within. You have to deal with the consequences of any action (including inaction), so I think it would be best if you come up with answers yourself. Therapy is probably a great start. Give yourself some credit for that, because not everyone takes that step themselves[1]! Please try to give yourself space. The urge to run-away is strong, but also temporary. Listen to what it's trying to tell you - it might tell you what aspects of your current situation are causing the most stress - but don't act impulsively. Try to make decisions when you're calm and have some perspective. To get that perspective, be kind to yourself, take some time off if you can. Don't feel guilty about the things you're currently not doing. You might feel guilty for not coding at night or participating in household chores. That's normal. You're ill, so your priority is to get better. When you feel better, you'll be able to learn any skills much better[2]. Hang in there, be patient, and one day you'll probably notice all this shit was just fertilizer for growth. [1] I've had to order my wife not to go to work, before she admitted she was burned out. She was crying at night because of work. [2] I had a bore-out in a previous job, causing me to lose any confidence in my abilities. Once I felt better I improved my coding skills by taking on interesting projects and things started to spiral upward again.