Sounds like OP does like company as long as it's interesting. Parties are not where you'll find that. Seek out the places that attract book lovers and idea peop

Sounds like OP does like company as long as it's interesting. Parties are not where you'll find that. Seek out the places that attract book lovers and idea people. Go to conferences and conventions. Find the people there who are hoping to find people like you. A real-life conversation with a passionate and well-read person is utterly unlike online interaction. Travel as much as you can afford to find these people, and come up with glorious plans for world domination together!