I had some devastating experiences on my early 20s losing people i loved and cared so much. The trauma was so intense that i don’t remember almost anything from

I had some devastating experiences on my early 20s losing people i loved and cared so much. The trauma was so intense that i don’t remember almost anything from these terrible years. Eventually i moved on, but the trauma was never healed. I had another recent devastating experience that made everything come out again x10000 times worse. The goal is not just to move on, just for the sake of it. The goal is to accept what happened, stop blaming yourself and then move on. My advice is to talk it with someone, and if you still struggle, seek for professional help. Better now than in 10 years. Write down everything that happened and you keep thinking. Be specific, all your thoughts, feelings, facts, wishes, anything. In addition, change your life as much as you wish and you can, change jobs, house, car, meet new friends, try new hobbies. Happy new year and take care.