Forcing children to eat unpleasant foods or go hungry is abuse: https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/rs6oy0/realising_a_childhood_punishment_was_fucked_up/hq

Forcing children to eat unpleasant foods or go hungry is abuse: https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/rs6oy0/realising_a_childhood_punishment_was_fucked_up/hqkieq6/ https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/rs6oy0/realising_a_c... > I wasn’t able to leave table a few times. One in particular- I used my absent father’s pepper mill and put too much in my mashed potatoes. It burned my mouth and they wouldn’t let me leave until I ate it all. Which I couldn’t do. Crying. Furious. Humiliated. Trapped. > It got late and I started to fall asleep at table. I was greeted with the potatoes as breakfast. Then when I opened my lunchbox at school- there they were. At least I could throw them away. That was the day my anorexia began. There were incidents after where I didn’t eat enough, where I took too much and wasted it- stuck at table in a power struggle I did not understand nor could I win. > My Mom did thuis with with my brother. If food is left out overnight, it is a trigger for him. He sees the food, and immediately thinks he has to eat it. I was forced to eat foods that made me sick, or I just didn't like. So, I would eat while dry heaving, and throwing back up into my mouth. I didn't dare not eat after seeing what my brother went through. That was the start of my eating disorder. I'm completely disconnected from my fullness/hunger cues. To eat mindfully is incredibly difficult because my brain is so used to dissociating while eating. My ED is binge eating because I used to eat a lot of anything I liked to get me through eating small amounts of anything I didn't like. I over-salt everything because I used to use salt to cover the taste of things, and need everything overcooked because my mom would undercook meat.