I have not been able to get ketamine, however I did find my cure for anxiety and depression (mostly). No SSRIs worked, I'm simply immune to that shit. It makes

I have not been able to get ketamine, however I did find my cure for anxiety and depression (mostly). No SSRIs worked, I'm simply immune to that shit. It makes me feel worse, even more suicidal than usual, even if taken long term. And withdrawals ain't pretty. So, enter gabapentin and pregabalin. Which no doctors would prescribe as they're for those with epilepsy or something and I'm just a fucking idiot in their eyes. No matter, I can buy it freely right now. Both of them work on voltage gated calcium channels, something I do not fully understand. But I do understand they work, and they work well. As long as I take either, I'm chill, content and even creative. Doesn't help with attention/focus, but at least it works for the anxiety and depression. Apparently they're prescription only because a small percentage of people reported euphoric feelings. Damn narcs lol. Yes, when initially taken in high enough dosages, both gabapentin and pregabalin gave me very euphoric feelings, insane waves of energy, somewhat between alcohol and cannabis, really nice. However that subsided after several months and now it's only the quiet chill feeling. Withdrawal is fast, if you taper down over a week there are no effects. If you quit cold turkey, it's a few nights of nightmares or insomnia. Overall, really not bad compared to anything else. So yeah, they work, they work well and I wish doctors actually put their brains to use and made them more readily available. Just make them OTC because few people can put up with the regular begging they have to do for life changing medication.