Oh boy, reading through this comment section is a hard pill to swallow. I have always had memory problems and I can recall hardly anything that happened a year

Oh boy, reading through this comment section is a hard pill to swallow. I have always had memory problems and I can recall hardly anything that happened a year ago. When meeting up with friends I will prepare stories to tell but after I've burned my fuel I become super passive, and I've always wondered how other people can talk so much more than I do, I guess I just always assumed they have more stories on standby. Now I realize other people can actually speak about whatever, on the fly. Whenever I have to improvise, I either have to form a sentence in my head before I say it, or if I try to actively engage in conversation and have to respond quickly, dumb half-sentences will come out. Which is a shame because I have a lot to say about certain topics but I physically can't in the moment, and I always beat myself up about it later. Programming for 10 hours is not a problem but I'm fried after a 2-hour meeting. I drink a lot because it helps me loosen up. My dad passed in 2016 and I don't remember much about him but he was a heavy drinker aswell. Today I learned I have autism. I should seek a therapist. Just felt like typing this out.