I'm painfully ADHD. Extreme. But I have slowly realized that what was actually hurting me is the belief that there is a way to "waste time" ... when I actually

I'm painfully ADHD. Extreme. But I have slowly realized that what was actually hurting me is the belief that there is a way to "waste time" ... when I actually relax then I take pretty good care of myself and my surroundings. Of course the modern world is not exactly a place where people relax so I doubt many have realized this. For me yoga is an absolute blessing, I stay away from all amphetamines (never drank coffee) although I did try it a couple of times so I know how it works and I'm glad I don't do it to meet deadlines or further "my career". Anyway, although I can never predict what I will do or how much I will get done it seems that I am steadily accomplishing more as I learn to relax. Accepting some of my bad habits has made them easier to manage and hopefully let go of eventually and engineering my environment so that I make smaller circles when I'm trying to avoid things has also helped. Most of all though I think what allows me to relax is that I have obtained a sufficient level of skill to survive and I am curious to learn more, even though I am a NDTM I am still converging, all the DTMs are puzzled by my behaviour but I arrive in similar places nevertheless. My credentials / certifications don't necessarily match the things I know, which can be annoying. I wish the evaluation system was decoupled from the education system. I believe philosophy is the most important tool to better your condition and computer science, scratch that, lisp! is an amazing gateway into philosophy... Evolving to extinction is not intelligence.