Man, does that ever resonate. I had years of just beating myself up over not being good enough before I caved and went back on my meds, and since then I have c

Man, does that ever resonate. I had years of just beating myself up over not being good enough before I caved and went back on my meds, and since then I have come to believe that the combination of the kinds of lateral thinking and hyperfocus that are endemic to add, with the crutch of adderall, actually grant me significant advantages that neurotypical types lack. My .emacs is my pride and joy and it does most of my work for me. If being on adderall is a little new to you, and you're on such a low dose, might I recommend supplementing with chelated magnesium and agmatine sulfate. These are vitamins that (somehow - I knew for a little while how when I was researching them but tbh that knowledge has flown the coop since) will suppress the development of a tolerance, if taken daily alongside the adderall. One of the pitfalls of being medicated with this stuff is that you're kind of on a steady uphill slope that eventually, if you get to where I am (15mg x 3 / day) means that when you need to take a break, you become more or less an obnoxious vegetable. Don't freak out - it's a looong slope (and probably not as dire an outcome as I may have made it sound), but you can make it longer with these to help mitigate, and you'll be thanking yourself for avoiding hard crashes.