That's fair, it sounds like you have a path forward! I can see how it would feel weird venting in a forum like this. I think one of the benefits of a therapist

That's fair, it sounds like you have a path forward! I can see how it would feel weird venting in a forum like this. I think one of the benefits of a therapist is that you also develop a sort of relationship; they have a better grasp of your context and history over time and that allows for more targeted support than whatever offhand/generic wisdom people on a forum might provide.