I went through something similar 15 years ago. Your problem is effectively a spiritual problem. You need to discover exactly who you are and learn to fully lov

I went through something similar 15 years ago. Your problem is effectively a spiritual problem. You need to discover exactly who you are and learn to fully love yourself in order to be fully alive again. When you know yourself, your meaning and purpose become clear. Exactly how you accomplish this is specific to you, but know that what got you here, won’t get you there. It could be meditation, psychedelics, athletics, social volunteering, reading philosophy, travel, who knows? Psychedelic therapy can be the most efficacious for many people and I strongly recommend reading Michael Pollan’s “How to Change Your Mind”. While all the psychedelics have the potential to positively improve your life, MDMA done in a therapeutic setting is often the easiest/most gentle and can still deliver big results. Ask yourself what are you afraid of? What do you resent about yourself? Who are you unable to forgive? These are all the things that block you from fully loving yourself and are the types of questions that MDMA or loving-kindness meditation can gently guide you through. There is light at the end of the tunnel and an absolutely amazing life awaits you in the future. Money does make life much easier, so use it to become the next evolution of your self.