More likely than not, you have in your mind (or heart, wherever you feel it) small notions of things you might like to try: ideas to explore, creative visions,

More likely than not, you have in your mind (or heart, wherever you feel it) small notions of things you might like to try: ideas to explore, creative visions, or ideas of the kind of person you'd like to be or the people you'd like to be around, or skills you wish you possessed (which may be far out of your comfort zone, e.g., learning the violin, social dancing), or problems in the world you'd like to focus on solving. In my opinion, a state like yours is characterized by not being in the habit of pursuing these inklings of vision; instead, you have lived accordingly to some superseding feeling, like a need to be wealthy or prove yourself as a member of a social class. Not being in the habit of amplifying your whims into genuine curiosity or a vision for life, you suppress them, or they bend back on themselves and turn into pangs of bitterness. Thus a prescription for you to try: when you feel an impulse like these, take it into your attention gently and nurture it, focus on it even if it doesn't seem like an answer to the question of "what is the most important thing to be doing right now", or "who am I" or "what do I care about"; on its own no little curiosity will answer these, but by building the habit of nurturing these things you will begin to know yourself and learn how to live in a way that is well-aligned rather than self-contradictory, and thus, your desire to act on the world will thrive and govern your actions (what is missing now). And the answers to those bigger questions will become apparent.