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My regards, and this is purely out of curiosity so feel free to ignore if I'm overstepping -- how are you "not the same person?" Can you tell what you "should"

by dvt 5y ago

My regards, and this is purely out of curiosity so feel free to ignore if I'm overstepping -- how are you "not the same person?" Can you tell what you "should" be like? Did you previously enjoy certain things that you don't anymore? Hoping you get better.

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l8nite 5y ago
I’m not the parent, but I had a moment where I physically felt something “break” in my brain (stress related), and ever since then I haven’t been the same person. The feeling is hard to articulate, but I no longer connect to my feelings or thoughts in the ways I had been accustomed to. My new behaviors and patterns are somewhat destructive to the life I was building prior to my “break,” and it’s incredibly maddening and depressing trying to balance “good for new me” and “good for the life old me built and the people he loved.” It goes way beyond not simply enjoying the things I used to enjoy any more.
- kayodelycaon 5y ago
  Interesting. I had a four month long psychotic break. It started mid-August 2018 when I physically felt something snap in my brain. (See my reply to the same comment)
  - sizzle 5y ago
    Would shrooms help you reset?
    - Enginerrrd 5y ago
      I'm pretty pro psychedelics, but you should know it's generally a REALLY bad idea for anyone with a history of psychosis to use them, to the point that I really implore you not to recommend them so casually to someone with such a history. That cohort is at very high risk and the use of psychedelics can really exacerbate the condition and make people less functional.
      - kayodelycaon 5y ago
        Yup. I’m bipolar.
    - kayodelycaon 5y ago
      I’ll pass. I’ve already had the shrooms experience and the complete brain reset without them. I’m on antipsychotics and no one is going to let me go off them, including me. I’m never, ever going off my antipsychotic.
- jmrm 5y ago
  > I’m not the parent, but I had a moment where I physically felt something “break” in my brain (stress related), and ever since then I haven’t been the same person. Same here. I had the mix of a heavy burnout and a broke up a couple of years ago and I'm still recovering. It's curious how I totally had the same kind of "logarithmic" recovery that some other people wrote in other comments here. It might be how the brain reacts to that.
kayodelycaon 5y ago
Not the parent commenter, but I have had a complete change of self. After my psychotic break and starting treatment for bipolar, I was a shell of a person. I had the opportunity to become anyone I wanted to be. I picked what I thought my best traits were from my last self and started on a journey of self discovery. I vaguely remember my previous self and he had completely different motivations. The only similarities I recognize are things I decided to keep. To keep this bit brief, my interests changed in ways I didn’t expect. My previous self would never have shamelessly written pornography. My previous self used to care what people thought of him. I don’t. I only care about the consequences of how people see me. This doesn’t make a sociopath because I do care about how people feel. I want to communicate effectively. I try to tailor my actions so other people feel I am listening and that I care, because I do. My previous self wasn’t so explicitly and logically calculating about relationships. My previous self was brutally honest. I try to be kind when confrontation or blunt honesty is necessary. Overall, my maturity increased by about 20 years in the last 3 years. My previous self is a person I’m not fond of.
- johnisgood 5y ago
  My change was profound, but the cause for it is pretty simple. I was in love with a girl and I tried to be with her but she did not even reply to me. I started thinking about how this happened and how I could have avoided it, I started thinking about in what ways she has changed me for the better... From here I just sort of became a "better" person. Honesty, loyalty, not making promises I cannot keep, and so forth... In some ways being a manipulative prick paid me off more, but I do not mind, I am sticking to who I am now.
ttul 5y ago
I just dimly remember being sharper and faster previously. It’s hard to pin down the precise changes more than that. Work is harder. Focusing is harder.

by dvt 5y ago

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l8nite 5y ago

I’m not the parent, but I had a moment where I physically felt something “break” in my brain (stress related), and ever since then I haven’t been the same person. The feeling is hard to articulate, but I no longer connect to my feelings or thoughts in the ways I had been accustomed to. My new behaviors and patterns are somewhat destructive to the life I was building prior to my “break,” and it’s incredibly maddening and depressing trying to balance “good for new me” and “good for the life old me built and the people he loved.” It goes way beyond not simply enjoying the things I used to enjoy any more.

kayodelycaon 5y ago
Interesting. I had a four month long psychotic break. It started mid-August 2018 when I physically felt something snap in my brain. (See my reply to the same comment)
- sizzle 5y ago
  Would shrooms help you reset?
  - Enginerrrd 5y ago
    I'm pretty pro psychedelics, but you should know it's generally a REALLY bad idea for anyone with a history of psychosis to use them, to the point that I really implore you not to recommend them so casually to someone with such a history. That cohort is at very high risk and the use of psychedelics can really exacerbate the condition and make people less functional.
    - kayodelycaon 5y ago
      Yup. I’m bipolar.
  - kayodelycaon 5y ago
    I’ll pass. I’ve already had the shrooms experience and the complete brain reset without them. I’m on antipsychotics and no one is going to let me go off them, including me. I’m never, ever going off my antipsychotic.
jmrm 5y ago
> I’m not the parent, but I had a moment where I physically felt something “break” in my brain (stress related), and ever since then I haven’t been the same person. Same here. I had the mix of a heavy burnout and a broke up a couple of years ago and I'm still recovering. It's curious how I totally had the same kind of "logarithmic" recovery that some other people wrote in other comments here. It might be how the brain reacts to that.

kayodelycaon 5y ago

Not the parent commenter, but I have had a complete change of self. After my psychotic break and starting treatment for bipolar, I was a shell of a person. I had the opportunity to become anyone I wanted to be. I picked what I thought my best traits were from my last self and started on a journey of self discovery. I vaguely remember my previous self and he had completely different motivations. The only similarities I recognize are things I decided to keep. To keep this bit brief, my interests changed in ways I didn’t expect. My previous self would never have shamelessly written pornography. My previous self used to care what people thought of him. I don’t. I only care about the consequences of how people see me. This doesn’t make a sociopath because I do care about how people feel. I want to communicate effectively. I try to tailor my actions so other people feel I am listening and that I care, because I do. My previous self wasn’t so explicitly and logically calculating about relationships. My previous self was brutally honest. I try to be kind when confrontation or blunt honesty is necessary. Overall, my maturity increased by about 20 years in the last 3 years. My previous self is a person I’m not fond of.

johnisgood 5y ago
My change was profound, but the cause for it is pretty simple. I was in love with a girl and I tried to be with her but she did not even reply to me. I started thinking about how this happened and how I could have avoided it, I started thinking about in what ways she has changed me for the better... From here I just sort of became a "better" person. Honesty, loyalty, not making promises I cannot keep, and so forth... In some ways being a manipulative prick paid me off more, but I do not mind, I am sticking to who I am now.

ttul 5y ago

I just dimly remember being sharper and faster previously. It’s hard to pin down the precise changes more than that. Work is harder. Focusing is harder.