When i started to take medication before my med doctor changed them to the current one, i was terrified about side-effects and i pushed and pushed my desire to

When i started to take medication before my med doctor changed them to the current one, i was terrified about side-effects and i pushed and pushed my desire to start them. But then one day i said "Enough. I can't continue living like this. I prefer the side-effects over this shit" and i started taking them, but sadly they didn't work.