As a young gay man I got so much practice at avoiding rocks and other objects thrown at me that when dodge ball came up at school I was almost impossible to hit

As a young gay man I got so much practice at avoiding rocks and other objects thrown at me that when dodge ball came up at school I was almost impossible to hit. This might have been a kind of victory, but being unable to hit others with projectiles means I was unable to claim victory and ended up being even more of a freak in everyone's eyes and thus even more of a target. Now I am in my mid fifties and the accumulated assaults on my person have given me an immense amount of combat experience. It makes me sad that you are so unable to come to terms with the intense violence that is pervasive in your society. Perhaps you can work out your anger toward preparedness by throwing rocks at people.