Problem for me is if I settle, I start to settle every step of the way and 0.95^n is pretty small when n is not small. If you settle here and there you already

Problem for me is if I settle, I start to settle every step of the way and 0.95^n is pretty small when n is not small. If you settle here and there you already can have something that’s 10% of the optimal thing. It’s a lot worse if you make a habit of it. I see some honour in sitting with my failure and struggling to be optimal than settle. I know it’s holding me back and that it’s mentally and emotionally taxing but I’m more terrified of descending far below mediocrity.