I'd say what you probably need most is to get the hell off the internet as much as possible, because so many apps are designed to suck away your time and have k

I'd say what you probably need most is to get the hell off the internet as much as possible, because so many apps are designed to suck away your time and have known negative consequences for mental health. I'd also say - get some professional help. If there are indeed some issues you need to work through, then processing them will enable you to have more perspective and "solve" the problem you've outlined here. But for a very quick starter: "don't compare your insides to someone else's outsides".