I don't prefer depressive states but I feel like a lot of anhedonic states border on disassociation for me and I'm praised for it. I'm in a state right now like

I don't prefer depressive states but I feel like a lot of anhedonic states border on disassociation for me and I'm praised for it. I'm in a state right now like the article author in that I'm doing all these good habits. I find it annoying when people comment on it and it often comes off as patronizing. I'm not doing it for attention or praise (and that doesn't really affect me), again, I'm doing it because I have to keep treading water. It leads to this terrible dynamic where I don't like reaching out to someone when I'm doing poorly but I also don't like reaching out to someone when I'm doing "well" - which means that I'm doing all the actions that one is to be praised for in "treating" depression but not feeling any relief whatsoever. It's painful to have people praise me or say I'm "strong" for what is a purely a survival mechanism, it's this or ending up physically abused in the psych ward.