I saw elements of my own experience everywhere here. But: “4] This is a weird but recurring behavior of mine. When sitting with a (professional) group for the

I saw elements of my own experience everywhere here. But: “4] This is a weird but recurring behavior of mine. When sitting with a (professional) group for the first time, I will always put myself at the edge. It's not because I'm avoiding the "power position" or anything. It's that I prefer to observe everyone first. And the best place to do that, is from the edge.” No. No. In American society, this 1-1.5 sigma deviant behavior. You were broadcasting, “I’m considering, on my terms, whether or not to join this group.” Consider overriding this strategy, even if it is “work.” In a group, I would consider trying to sit as close to the center of mass as possible.