> I felt like I didn't actually know what happened in the past, so I didn't know who I was in the present, and the future I was working towards was gone. It wa

> I felt like I didn't actually know what happened in the past, so I didn't know who I was in the present, and the future I was working towards was gone. It was existentially disorienting. Right, I can relate to this, especially because I never got closure on exactly why I wasn't worth fighting for or being given a heads up that I was doing something very wrong. > I know this is unsolicited advice, but for what it's worth take some time to figure out how and why you found yourself in the situation. I'm going to try and do that, I think reflecting back over the last decade, I definitely changed a lot and there were signs of some things not working but I always had this "you have to give it everything you've got" attitude and didn't want to give up. > I hope you find peace and happiness in the future. Thank you, I hope you do as well!