I had one trip where I found peace with the idea of dying. Why keep struggling with life if you can leave it in harmony? Not sure if I would call this suicidal

I had one trip where I found peace with the idea of dying. Why keep struggling with life if you can leave it in harmony? Not sure if I would call this suicidal though. But it changed my attitude towards dying. I think if I had a hopeless disease or was close to dying otherwise I wouldn't fight it but try to die in a peaceful and aware way.