Complete Edit. Okay you know what, I wrote something else initially and it was definitely pity party, so I'm editing it because I really hate pity parties for

Complete Edit. Okay you know what, I wrote something else initially and it was definitely pity party, so I'm editing it because I really hate pity parties for myself. Your advice is good, you're also like the second person recently who said instead of talking stuff down I should try to build it up first. It pisses me off that everywhere I go I have to put in so much groundwork first. I specifically went to this job because it wasn't a startup and I was hoping for the groundwork of the company to carry it, but a new team feels similar to a startup in that it needs people to form the culture and put in effort to lay the ground work. I have a chance to do that here and even though it annoys me that I have to, if I don't no one is going to -- that I know from experience.