... OH, That?!?! That will go away the older one becomes. As I was 14, I thought, I'm grown up and can decide. As I got 18: finally! With 30, I look back and

... OH, That?!?! That will go away the older one becomes. As I was 14, I thought, I'm grown up and can decide. As I got 18: finally! With 30, I look back and realize how stupid it was :) With 40, I look at 30 and think, how could I've not realize, that 30 is not much away from 18 .. And now, with 40, I think I finally know what I want. All that was important earlier is quite a result of all the pressure the society lay upon individual members. Like, a mirror you look into and see each individual member of that society - similar style, similar hair cut (the one "in" will be seen oftenly, in contrast to the "out" one), body shapes and so on.. As everything in a mirror is being mirrored back smaller by a factor of root(2) - so will be the image you see of yourself. I want to be bigger than that and train the parts of me which can't be mirrored easily, rendering "the surface" not important. Which is really not.