I've had 2 cornea replacements. In 5-10 years I'll need them replaced again, (and repeat until I die or go blind). I was freaking out for 6 months about the e

I've had 2 cornea replacements. In 5-10 years I'll need them replaced again, (and repeat until I die or go blind). I was freaking out for 6 months about the entire operation. The more research that I did, didn't help. Even support groups that had gone through it didn't help. I was terrified. The first eye: I took Xanax before the procedure, and they gave me something to calm me down. I was partially aware of life for 10 minutes after I was almost home. The second eye: I didn't take Xanax, and partway through the procedure I woke up enough to be able to feel them working in my eye. I was calm and not bothered by it. It felt more like a tugging and pulling (like how your foot associates your shoe-laces being tied); but I was calm. The doctor told me to stop moving my eye. They must have given me something more, because I don't remember anything else. It's an out-patient procedure. If you are in a similar position and have ANY questions, I'll talk to you about it. There will be a hundred people who say: "If I can do it, anybody can!" I don't want to be dismissive about your feelings. I was in horrible shape before the procedure. But I will be honest with you and talk about it if you want.