I do envy you I think. I am always there except when daydreaming or in the zone (reading, mind wandering, etc.). Then again what would I think what is "me" if

I do envy you I think. I am always there except when daydreaming or in the zone (reading, mind wandering, etc.). Then again what would I think what is "me" if I didn't have that constant 'observation of the world (outer and inner)' ? Maybe I don't have inner dialogue but anxiety is eating my mind (anxiety as in: being aware of the world all the time, observing it all the time) and it gives an illusion of monologue/being ?