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I'm healing from PTSD, I took two years off work and then the last nine months I just finished up my PhD in mathematical physics working part time. I'm still di

by joe__f 5y ago

I'm healing from PTSD, I took two years off work and then the last nine months I just finished up my PhD in mathematical physics working part time. I'm still disabled in different ways, I get triggered by groups of people so I can't socialise very easily I'm kind of slowly reintroducing interacting with society. I had an interview for a postdoc in my field last week and I'm waiting on whether I got offered a job or not, I think I'm quite likely to get it. I've got a consistent little voice in my head saying, "don't take it, don't have a job just spend your time on learning how to talk to people again and think about working later" but it seems kind of crazy, if I get offered the job it's everything I've worked towards for ten years. I've been reading HN for about 6 months and I registered a few weeks back. I guess I'll probably going down some kind of tech route in a year or so if I don't get a position in academia.

taurath 5y ago
Similar situation here - I’m slowly starting to look to get up and do something other than focus on therapy and healing. I’ve taken a bit of time off, and I’m struggling still to change my mindset from survival towards more self actualization.
- joe__f 5y ago
  Good luck with it, I can attest to it being tough. I also struggle with survival/actualisation, one day I have a brief glimpse of enlightenment and the next two weeks I'm barely managing to get by
  - taurath 5y ago
    Very similar here. Trying to reframe for myself so I’m less frustrated all the time but I’d really prefer to not have to deal with this for the rest of my life.
tdstein 5y ago
I'm sorry to hear about your struggles with PTSD. I've experienced significant healing through EMDR therapy. I highly recommend undergoing treatment if you can find a licensed clinician or therapist. https://www.emdr.com/what-is-emdr/ https://www.emdr.com/what-is-emdr/
- joe__f 5y ago
  Hey thanks, I tried EMDR a couple of years ago and it didn't work for me. I'm in a different place now though, could be worth trying it again

by joe__f 5y ago

taurath 5y ago

Similar situation here - I’m slowly starting to look to get up and do something other than focus on therapy and healing. I’ve taken a bit of time off, and I’m struggling still to change my mindset from survival towards more self actualization.

joe__f 5y ago
Good luck with it, I can attest to it being tough. I also struggle with survival/actualisation, one day I have a brief glimpse of enlightenment and the next two weeks I'm barely managing to get by
- taurath 5y ago
  Very similar here. Trying to reframe for myself so I’m less frustrated all the time but I’d really prefer to not have to deal with this for the rest of my life.

tdstein 5y ago

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles with PTSD. I've experienced significant healing through EMDR therapy. I highly recommend undergoing treatment if you can find a licensed clinician or therapist. https://www.emdr.com/what-is-emdr/ https://www.emdr.com/what-is-emdr/

joe__f 5y ago
Hey thanks, I tried EMDR a couple of years ago and it didn't work for me. I'm in a different place now though, could be worth trying it again