There is always a ton of advice out there, and i could give you some of my own but anything too specific probably won’t help, because I don’t know you. So my o

There is always a ton of advice out there, and i could give you some of my own but anything too specific probably won’t help, because I don’t know you. So my only advice is to seriously take on the task of answering this question yourself. Get curious about yourself. Not intellectually, i mean observe yourself - thoughts flying by, sensations in your body. Maybe try doing it just before or after you post/say something negative. Maybe try writing to yourself or talking to yourself. Take it seriously and dig in to the question as if its worth answering - use all the abilities you might at your job too - planning, project management, writing, etc. I have found this approach to be more helpful than “consuming” information when trying to make any change because i can actually discover problems and formulate solutions that might work rather than sort of blindly cycling through advice. Sort of like building software - nontechnical people will sometimes just try or suggest buzzword tech or software, but any good engineer will work to deeply understand the actual problem they are trying to solve - the solution is often simple and obvious once you understand the problem.