Negativity is incredibly powerful for me, even though I don't express it. Not in the sense it makes me feel smug, but I tear down everything about a particular

Negativity is incredibly powerful for me, even though I don't express it. Not in the sense it makes me feel smug, but I tear down everything about a particular thing I am focusing on - go to the fundamentals and find out where they went right and wrong. Put the thing to paces, read the manual, assess its usability and what they said it would do and doesn't. I learn from it. Wearing rosy glasses is a disadvantage for me, I lose a grip on developing a taste and seeking excellence. There are times when you come across absolute perfection (limit of my cognition) and can't find any faults or negative aspects. I get obsessed by whoever built this thing, and often send them an email how inspiring their creation is.