The linked interview with Philip Shepherd made the premise clearer to me. Hope I can someday sustain that kind of being. Trying for a long time already, occassi

The linked interview with Philip Shepherd made the premise clearer to me. Hope I can someday sustain that kind of being. Trying for a long time already, occassionally did it for a while then got overwhelmed, back to dumbing myself down with meat, with pointless fun, with busywork, many things. Pity it's all so easy to mix with flashy esoterics.