My neighbor used to pay us a quarter if we caught a butterfly and gave it to her. Dead or alive as long as it was intact. She liked to pin them up and then pain

My neighbor used to pay us a quarter if we caught a butterfly and gave it to her. Dead or alive as long as it was intact. She liked to pin them up and then paint them. She was a shitty painter and all her work sucked and I have huge regrets over spending days killing butterflies and other bugs but can only say I was a young kid and would never do so now. I want to plant some milkweed to make up for my past.