Anecdote: I had severe OCD from childhood through my first year in college, triggered by separation from my parents (who never got me therapy despite extremely

Anecdote: I had severe OCD from childhood through my first year in college, triggered by separation from my parents (who never got me therapy despite extremely obvious signs.) I had multiple panic attacks per day resulting in depersonalization/derealization, I was failing my classes etc. Logically I knew that my mom wouldn't die if I didn't stop my room fan at its maximum rotation or if I didn't make the sign of the cross 2^n times. But mental illness is illogical. What "good coping skills" would fix that? Psych put me on Prozac, which numbed every feeling but panic, which it didn't touch. I got relief from a bad trip on 2C-E, in which I had such a severe panic attack that it permanently destroyed that identity and left me with depersonalization. The old me was dead, so over the following months I built a new one. OCD apparently got erased with the rest of me. I successfully went off Prozac by quitting it cold turkey and stayed off SSRIs for a decade. I guess the takeaway is: serious mental illness exists, platitudes about life wouldn't help, SSRIs didn't help either but didn't make me dependent, and psychedelics are a crapshoot.