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This was one of the factors that made me think twice about going back on anti-depressants, until I made peace with the fact that my ability to orgasm wasn't goi

by ljm 5y ago

This was one of the factors that made me think twice about going back on anti-depressants, until I made peace with the fact that my ability to orgasm wasn't going to pull me out of the hole I was in. It's a shitty choice but the desire to not be suicidal forces your hand. It's literally like flipping a switch. One day, the plumbing works. The next day, it doesn't. Many times I'd just give up, out of boredom. The side-effects are clearly stated but to use myself as an example, I vastly underestimated just how strong they would be. That said, if you're dealing with the big black dog as it were, don't use it as a reason to avoid anti-depressants if you really need them. Keep your doctor up to date about the side-effects so they can adjust your prescription. And don't be shy just because you're talking about your private parts. And make sure you have a therapist too.

ivraatiems 5y ago
Have you considered augmenting with something like Wellbutrin? Some people find it helps with the side effects. I've tried it myself and while I found it was too anxiety-inducing (I felt too keyed up) there's truth to that at least.
- ljm 5y ago
  No, not personally. I eventually was able to come off the medication. Took a couple of weeks to get back to some semblance of normal but I'm sure there's permanent damage still. That said, it's not easy to walk away from suicidal depression (and attempts to commit suicide) without a decent helping of trauma, and potentially even PTSD. So, of course, there isn't really a 'normal' to go back to once you've got the awareness of that and how far down the rabbit hole you fell. Normal becomes something else.
  - ivraatiems 5y ago
    Wellbutrin has no sexual side effects (the opposite, in fact) and is very effective for depression (but not anxiety). You might want to give it a try if you are still struggling. Of course, it comes with its own tapestry of possible issues. Either way, hope you are doing OK/OK enough.
lost-found 5y ago
You ever look into ketamine for treating depression? Self medicated this past weekend and had some major breakthroughs with my long time depression/suicidal intrusive thoughts. Nice thing is you don’t have to stay on it unlike other antidepressants—I would never do a medication that you have to constantly take.
- thanatos519 5y ago
  Try 2F-DCK. Many benefits but no K-hole.
- standardUser 5y ago
  "I would never do a medication that you have to constantly take." Tell that to your heart doctor when you're 70.
  - lost-found 5y ago
    Probably will.
- cwkoss 5y ago
  Ketamine can be pretty rough on the bladder and kidneys. Please read up on the risks. It is definitely dangerous to take recreational doses several times per week - it seems that low/moderate doses every week or two avoids most of the problems while still providing therapeutic effects, but definitely keep an eye on the health of those systems, ideally with letting your doctor know so they can help. Many of users on /r/researchchemicals using either ket or novel analogs at recreational doses regularly for both fun and depression relief end up with bladder issues after over-consuming for a period - so while it's a promising depression treatment, I'd recommend caution around dosage and frequency and titrating to find your minimum effective dose.
  - lost-found 5y ago
    Of course, anything taken in excess has risks.
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by ljm 5y ago

ivraatiems 5y ago

Have you considered augmenting with something like Wellbutrin? Some people find it helps with the side effects. I've tried it myself and while I found it was too anxiety-inducing (I felt too keyed up) there's truth to that at least.

ljm 5y ago
No, not personally. I eventually was able to come off the medication. Took a couple of weeks to get back to some semblance of normal but I'm sure there's permanent damage still. That said, it's not easy to walk away from suicidal depression (and attempts to commit suicide) without a decent helping of trauma, and potentially even PTSD. So, of course, there isn't really a 'normal' to go back to once you've got the awareness of that and how far down the rabbit hole you fell. Normal becomes something else.
- ivraatiems 5y ago
  Wellbutrin has no sexual side effects (the opposite, in fact) and is very effective for depression (but not anxiety). You might want to give it a try if you are still struggling. Of course, it comes with its own tapestry of possible issues. Either way, hope you are doing OK/OK enough.

lost-found 5y ago

You ever look into ketamine for treating depression? Self medicated this past weekend and had some major breakthroughs with my long time depression/suicidal intrusive thoughts. Nice thing is you don’t have to stay on it unlike other antidepressants—I would never do a medication that you have to constantly take.

thanatos519 5y ago
Try 2F-DCK. Many benefits but no K-hole.
standardUser 5y ago
"I would never do a medication that you have to constantly take." Tell that to your heart doctor when you're 70.
- lost-found 5y ago
  Probably will.
cwkoss 5y ago
Ketamine can be pretty rough on the bladder and kidneys. Please read up on the risks. It is definitely dangerous to take recreational doses several times per week - it seems that low/moderate doses every week or two avoids most of the problems while still providing therapeutic effects, but definitely keep an eye on the health of those systems, ideally with letting your doctor know so they can help. Many of users on /r/researchchemicals using either ket or novel analogs at recreational doses regularly for both fun and depression relief end up with bladder issues after over-consuming for a period - so while it's a promising depression treatment, I'd recommend caution around dosage and frequency and titrating to find your minimum effective dose.
- lost-found 5y ago
  Of course, anything taken in excess has risks.
- deleted 5y ago