I quit my primary (sr swe) job which was crushing my soul to do remote work for a client for the same pay. Now the remote client has died from COVID, and I can

I quit my primary (sr swe) job which was crushing my soul to do remote work for a client for the same pay. Now the remote client has died from COVID, and I can’t decide what I want to do. Seeing how quickly one can go from living to not living, it makes me question my priorities. How many vacations did I indefinitely postpone because my work couldn’t be without me? Answer, many… some years with naught but one handful of holiday days. If one’s work brings great joy and satisfaction, then that IS living. But for those of us who have yet to discover what our real meaningful passion is, we probably should not postpone the things that make us happy. Live while you can.