>I just know that there's something wrong or missing. I'm starting to think that the thing that feels "wrong" is just that it directly contradicts foundational

>I just know that there's something wrong or missing. I'm starting to think that the thing that feels "wrong" is just that it directly contradicts foundational elements of your current belief system. And it's perfectly natural to avoid updating a belief system that has and continues to serve you reasonably well, even if you know deep down that it's inaccurate. Because you also know that updating it will have a significant cost as the implications unfold. I don't think it's a coincidence that the "religion solution" contains a lot of brute-force belief-writing and evidence-avoidance techniques. Coming from someone who no longer feels the incongruity, and has paid for that update.