Sam, you need to realize you can't do something morally heinous and zero it out by doing something morally acceptable. Just as donating to charity doesn't excus

Sam, you need to realize you can't do something morally heinous and zero it out by doing something morally acceptable. Just as donating to charity doesn't excuse you for what amounts to wire fraud, being the first to break the ice with Jonathan doesn't entitle you to forgiveness. You've come through loud and clear about your personality. Now it's time for you to make a decision that will affect nobody but yourself: Will you choose to learn from this and be a better person, or will you rationalize it all away and live in blissful ignorance of your own self? I sincerely hope this whole saga makes you a better, more open minded person.