I do not know. Couldn't ever figure out and that's why I haven't quit my job yet. Guess, I will never do. I find it like a strange serenity - having a 9-5 job a

I do not know. Couldn't ever figure out and that's why I haven't quit my job yet. Guess, I will never do. I find it like a strange serenity - having a 9-5 job and then having the remaining time and energy for yourself. Okay, this is irrelevant. But one thing sure I have figured out - you can live a life, you can walk around but you cannot learn something without commitment,never. Not at least in the sense of classic learning, as in learning well. Why don't you check with the way you start to learn. Is it laziness? Lack of interest or motivation? Is is just that you daydream about everything happening just the way you want but never actually doing anything for that? Or what? I do not see (IMHO) you as an ambitious person (no offence) but I see you as a dreamer maybe, which is good to start with. You are not ambitious because that will be you using fullest of your abilities. You have one plus point though, you are just 20. Here's my suggestion. It's not related to programming. Start on a trip. If possible a RTW trip. This is all I can think of to be help for you. This works. Good luck.