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Yeah I've got stuff I want to do. I can't. No money, no time, no people and even when I had all that, I fucked it all up and shat it down the toilet. So I spend

by bserge 5y ago

Yeah I've got stuff I want to do. I can't. No money, no time, no people and even when I had all that, I fucked it all up and shat it down the toilet. So I spend time shitposting and reading other people's shit. It's easy, fast, and takes my mind off the miserable game called life. For many, the solution is to get a life. For me, it's to get rid of mine. If someone could do it for me, that'd be great.

slothtrop 5y ago
I'm seeing distortions here. If you've got time to "live" on the internet, you've got time for friends, and you can make them. No reason you can't have this again.
- bserge 5y ago
  Well, I did try, half-arsedly as always. Joined a few Discord groups, no one talks (had fun a few times when people were in voice chat tbf), servers just die. Volunteered for community cleaning, fixing computers and bikes. The former was really nice, but no friends. The latter, they did their best to make it clear I wasn't wanted there. I mean, I wish they'd just say it to my face "look, we don't like you". Every time I went drinking with coworkers, same thing. This reminds me a lot of my early years, where I would break my back (once literally) to help people, give them money, anything. They're friends, right? Turned out I'm no friend to them. Now, the thing is, unlike online, I'm not an asshole offline. I am very quiet and really reserved. You'll never get a disagreement or any emotional opinion for that matter out of me and you certainly won't hear my real thoughts on anything. But I do want to and enjoy helping people, and I wish others were the same. I guess that's a big problem to other people. There's no place for me here, damn. Just wish I wasn't such a coward and just went through with it.
  - slothtrop 5y ago
    That actually doesn't sound half-assed. Just unfortunate. It sounds banal, but by the numbers, given enough time putting yourself out there trying different things you'll accrue more connections with people who aren't complete assholes. There are many like you who just want to meet nice people.

by bserge 5y ago

slothtrop 5y ago

I'm seeing distortions here. If you've got time to "live" on the internet, you've got time for friends, and you can make them. No reason you can't have this again.

bserge 5y ago
Well, I did try, half-arsedly as always. Joined a few Discord groups, no one talks (had fun a few times when people were in voice chat tbf), servers just die. Volunteered for community cleaning, fixing computers and bikes. The former was really nice, but no friends. The latter, they did their best to make it clear I wasn't wanted there. I mean, I wish they'd just say it to my face "look, we don't like you". Every time I went drinking with coworkers, same thing. This reminds me a lot of my early years, where I would break my back (once literally) to help people, give them money, anything. They're friends, right? Turned out I'm no friend to them. Now, the thing is, unlike online, I'm not an asshole offline. I am very quiet and really reserved. You'll never get a disagreement or any emotional opinion for that matter out of me and you certainly won't hear my real thoughts on anything. But I do want to and enjoy helping people, and I wish others were the same. I guess that's a big problem to other people. There's no place for me here, damn. Just wish I wasn't such a coward and just went through with it.
- slothtrop 5y ago
  That actually doesn't sound half-assed. Just unfortunate. It sounds banal, but by the numbers, given enough time putting yourself out there trying different things you'll accrue more connections with people who aren't complete assholes. There are many like you who just want to meet nice people.