Sorry to read that. You sound like someone I might know. I hope I'm wrong, if I'm not please reach out. Trick is, you have to be satisfied with yourself first

Sorry to read that. You sound like someone I might know. I hope I'm wrong, if I'm not please reach out. Trick is, you have to be satisfied with yourself first and be happy living alone without setting any expectations upon yourself. Only then you can start searching for a partner who will further improve your life. There is no silver bullet, because this is a process and every person has to find solution by him/herself. Have you tried multiple different activities even if you had no prior experience? For example: animal shelters are really happy if someone comes by and offers to walk the dogs. You get to experience new things and possibly meet new people during the walks. Try to search for activities where you are forced to spend some time with other people without any romantic agenda. Like sports activities, impro theater, Toastmasters communities etc.