You need to learn to be happy being who you are, not who you "should" be. If your parents are toxic, then take a break from them. Surround yourself with people

You need to learn to be happy being who you are, not who you "should" be. If your parents are toxic, then take a break from them. Surround yourself with people that make you happy and forget about your past. You should really see a therapist because this anger and resentment is not the way to live your life. You're still young and you can have an incredibly happy life. Please consider it strongly.