There was a time I used to have fun just building things for myself (rc planes) then it transitioned to this thing where I had to share it (forums). Eventually

There was a time I used to have fun just building things for myself (rc planes) then it transitioned to this thing where I had to share it (forums). Eventually I would share just concepts/drawings/ideas and not the real thing. I now try to finish something before I even mention it. There's also a flood of people's ideas/works/projects (Hackaday). I guess having personal goals is nice to pursue/not compare against. As they say talk is easy I used to be active on FB and unfortunately I started to post like crazy/cringe things on there, thankfully I became self aware/cleaned up my public trail. Now I avoid it. One main reason is I have over a hundred friend requests of random people (indirect family/acquaintances from 20 yrs ago) trying to get to know me/ask me for money (people from a third world country). I'm not completely against social media, I use Reddit to look at certain subreddits related to technology, check the news sometimes, and then for brain-dead time, look at meme sites. I have had to stop myself a few times just due to how much time... that's the thing it's captivating/paralyzing the few seconds of media constantly changing (scrolling memes). But on the days when my brain doesn't function anymore, this low effort content is nice to pass the time till I fall asleep/ready to function again. I want to get back into the groove again, isolate myself, pursue something with time. There's also that sense of being a producer vs. being an audience like the person making the videos on YT vs. the people commenting.