Talk to a therapist. Any therapist you can find will be helpful to begin with, don't get stuck on choosing the "best" one. They'll help you understand yourself

Talk to a therapist. Any therapist you can find will be helpful to begin with, don't get stuck on choosing the "best" one. They'll help you understand yourself better, learn what it is about your circumstances you actually like and don't like, and why you like or don't like things. They'll also help you find out if you want to change anything, and what, if anything, is holding you back from making a change.