Much like if you read a good book, as time goes on you will lose the details and only recall the main gist unless you reread the book occasionally. There is con

Much like if you read a good book, as time goes on you will lose the details and only recall the main gist unless you reread the book occasionally. There is concrete work to do beyond just getting in the right state of mind. It sounds like you're doing the surgery but ignoring the post-surgical physical therapy required to fully heal. I'd suggest a guide to help with the 2nd part. If you'd really like to learn some things about yourself and the experience that you'll likely forget soon after, record your entire session and rewatch it while sober. Listening to your words/questions and watching yourself will retrigger some of those experiences/lessons in much higher clarity.