SAP and ABAP will suck the life out of anybody! I started in the same boat, first as an employee and later as a consultant. None of it was rewarding - so I star

SAP and ABAP will suck the life out of anybody! I started in the same boat, first as an employee and later as a consultant. None of it was rewarding - so I started businesses on the side and it eventually panned out into a full time successful company. Just do something on the side that you are passionate about. Doesn't have to be a huge undertaking - just something. Keep the job to pay your bills, but the rest of your time work on your project, get customers, build stuff, etc, etc. You'll find it rewarding and if you put the right effort into it things will work out for you eventually.