I'm now older than by big sis :( Unfortunately when she died of cancer, she was in complete denial. Right to the bitter end it was "I'll get better". She refus

I'm now older than by big sis :( Unfortunately when she died of cancer, she was in complete denial. Right to the bitter end it was "I'll get better". She refused to write down anything, or records little videos for her newborn to have when he was older. It felt like communicating "from beyond the grave", as it were, and she just couldn't do it. It was an admission of her impending death. She just wanted to raise him and one day tell him about her fight with cancer.